General Conference Weekend and Polygamist Dating

Hey y'all!!! It's Conference Weekend!!! My favorite weekend of the year!! Now, I don't know if y'all know much about The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, but twice a year, the first weekend of April and October, we gather together and hear from the leaders of our church! It's AMAZING!! I feel like all of my worries and doubts are addressed when I listen to these great men and women who lead us! You can check it out HERE! If you are looking for peace in your life that seems to be out of your grasp. Or if you feel like everything is just not going your way, please check it out, m'kay? I promise you will feel something wonderful and peaceful!

In other news, I have been spending some time with that new guy I was telling you about, James. He's super cute, like in a friend way. He's from Seattle and is working on a Bachelor's degree in Chemical Engineering. He's really smart. He hasn't asked me out, and I'm kind of glad because I'm having fun just being friends with him. Plus, I feel like everything happened so fast with Hollander that it's nice to kind of just take things easy. Get to know him as a friend and then we'll see if anything happens later. But seriously, he's adorable. We went to get ice cream the other night and my friend Rachel came with us. James surprised us by paying for both of us and we went to sit together. It was funny watch people watch us. It was a Friday night and the ice cream shop was rather busy as we sat down and started talking between us. I noticed several couples kind of watching us with a curious glance. It dawned on me that they may have thought we were on a date. Like, a guy dating two girls kind of a date. Like, a polygamist date. And I guess it would have looked a little bit funny because I was sitting closer to James than Rachel was, but we were all engaged in the conversation. A couple left and I saw the girl shaking her head and I'm pretty sure she mouthed something like "disgusting" in our direction as she left. I turned to James and asked,

"Um, did you see that lady?"

"Did she just mouth 'disgusting' at us?" He asked.

"I think so! I think she thought we were both on a date with you." I told him.

"Why would people think we were on a date?" Rachel chimed in with.

"Because James bought our ice cream. Oh my gosh. I think people think we're on a polygamist date!" I answered. And then we all started laughing. Instead of being offended or getting upset, we decided to play it up. When we left James made it a point to say a little louder than he normally would,

"So, ladies, I got us tickets for the 7:15 show. We better hurry so we don't miss the previews" and then he took us each by the hand and we left together. It also didn't help that he had driven so we all climbed back into his car and we drove away trying not to die of laughter.

I think this is one of the things I love about Utah. People's assumptions get the best of them, which is remarkable because this place is unlike anywhere else in the world. There is a brightness to the people, a lot of friendliness and eagerness to know you. It's a melting pot of cultures because so many people travel great distances to attend BYU. Heck, I'm one of them! But it's almost like people are looking for the strangest of circumstances when there is often a completely reasonable explanation. Like how James was just being a nice person and not dating two girls at the same time. Because that would be a rather interesting situation.

So, y'all, when you see something you can't quite understand, how about you not go to the craziest explanation. And also, don't call people disgusting for eating ice cream with friends. Because it's not. And that would be weird.

Pass the Ben and Jerry's

Hey y'all! Sorry I haven't posted lately. I've been a little down. Hollander and I broke up. Ugh. He's so stubborn! I hate it. You'd think he'd listen to what I had to say, but no. He just had to be right. I mean, I think I know what I'm talking about, right? Y'all understand, right?

Any way, I don't really want to get in to that right now. But, since I am officially single again, my roommates have started inviting me to come hang out with them, which is so sweet of them. But, it's a little awkward. The other night Kyla and Nick invited me to go see a movie with them and insisted that I come. So, I said I would. I didn't have any other plans. But, they also invited another couple. It was crazy awkward for me. I sat in between both couples watching a very intense action movie. I mean, at least it wasn't a chick flick or I would have probably sobbed all through it. Instead, I sat there awkwardly. And then, they sat through, like ALL of the credits. Who does that in a movie other than a Marvel movie? Apparently these people do. It was super weird. I ended up leaving the theater and responding to the texts I missed from being in the movie, because I am NOT one of those people who texts during movies. That's awful and no one should ever do it.

And then I came home and sat out on the balcony to just be by myself for a little bit and do you know who I saw?! That's right, I saw Hollander walking a girl home, and she was giggling. Ugh. And she's waaaay shorter than Hollander. She lives in the same building as me. I think her name is Stacey? Maybe? I can't remember exactly, but I do know her. And as much as I hate it, she's actually a pretty good fit for him. Which made me feel even worse. And I started to cry, but I didn't want people to know I was crying, so I was, like, muffling my cries. And then I saw Hollander leave a few minutes later. He stopped just after stepping off the sidewalk and totally looked right up at my balcony. I don't think he saw me, though, because I feel like he would have still said hi. Because things ended well, mostly. We said we'd still say hi and that kind of thing.

I hate dating. I hate breaking up even more. Because as great as Stacey is, I think I still have feelings for Hollander. And seeing them walk down the sidewalk together nearly killed me. I mean I was on my balcony crying. CRYING. I hate crying. And it was a real serisous cry, not like when I cried because Tom Hiddleston started dating Taylor Swift, which could be it's own post altogether. Ugh. But since we're talking about Tom, I think I am going to replace him because he's dating Taylor Swift. And I used to LOVE her music but now I listen to it and I cringe a little bit. I mean I'm sure they're happy, and that's awesome. I just hate people in happy relationships. Okay, I don't HATE them, but I just want to keep my distance from their happiness right now.

 I came across the mini series North and South on Netflix. Have y'all seen that one?! If not, you HAVE to watch it! I think the main guy on that one might be my new Tom. His name is Richard Armitage, and he is so amazing on that show. Apparently he was also in The Hobbit movies? I don't know that I've watched those ones. I mean, I've read The Hobbit, but three movies seems a bit much for how little that book is.

Any way, I'm exhausted. And all I've done is written this blog post! Emotions are hard. I don't like them. I mean, I love them, just not when my heart hurts. And my heart really hurts right now. I'm going to go eat some ice cream.

Night, y'all!!